Why am I crying this way? Why do I feel that there's something missing? Why do I feel this strange feeling inside me?
For the past days when I was in school, it seems that everything was perfect -- I already got to see my bestfriends, my batchmates, as well as my teachers..but it seems there's something missing. I always find myself searching for someone..There's a certain space of emptiness in me that only a very special person could only fill..I tried to rub those thoughts away from me, but why? I don't understand why it always comes back to me. I told a person about this and he said that maybe that person is already the one you've looking for..I don't know but I'm confused..
The person who was speaking about the one also told me one matter that was going on about a certain person's life. I was in shock when he told me that this certain person had already know about it. Even though he told me how he knew that this person knew about it..I still don't get it. He also added that he doesn't mind about the matter because I'm also his friend. (There were also other matters we discussed about this certain person but I don't want to tell them due to their confidentiality..one of these issues really hurt me badly.) I really don't understand..and when I had buried these thoughts in my mind..a strange feeling was felt..it started to hurt so badly..the feeling that may be called..ACHE..
A while ago, I just cried concerning both issues..but what am I really crying about? My heart is aching..but for whom? I told myself before that I don't want to think about this matters because of fear of emotional pain..but why am I crying? Where did this bitter ache come from? Would I even get an answer to all these questions?
Cheska's thoughts at 10:57 PM
life's sweetness..
The sound that sting one's ears, the smell of damp paper left outside to humidify and dehydrate, the unconscious minds and treacherous hearts were all but a part of the melodrama.
