**[her bittersweet melodrama]**

Wala ako masabi sa araw na ito kundi..

DAMN RIGHT MEDYAS!!!

Naiinis ako!!! Naiinis talaga ako!!! Naiinis ako sa sarili ko!!! Gusto ko sumigaw!!! At this point, I’m absolutely full of hatred. Ewan ko ba kung kalian naging maayos buhay ko. I think it was..NEVER!!! I start my day great, then..BOOM!!! I hate it!!! I want to throw something to relieve my anger! I want to hit something! AAAHHH..!!! My life is always a mess!!! MEDYAS, MEDYAS, MEDYAS, MEDYAS!!!

Cheska's thoughts at 9:45 PM

Sorry people if I havent blogged for days..Please bear with me..it's tough making it to the Honor List..as well as fighting the battle of the ultimate factor..LAZINESS..hehehe..n_n..

Alright..what to type first? School, friends, home or church? Probably, school first..

At school:

Our class is currently practicing our presentation for our First Quarterly Convocation to be held on Sept.2, Friday, at the SCS Villa Corrina campus, 8.30 in the morning (Wow! Kumpleto yun ah!). We are really taking it seriously because our convocation is a contest. I have a role..Sound Tech Personnel (yup..the one in charge of the music..). Anyway, Mariel might give me another role..

Friends:

Last Saturday, Osan, Krizsa, and I celebrated Osan's birthday (Happy Birthday, Mrs. Yoh Asakura!). We went to SM Megamall. Hahaha..wala kaming ginawa dun kundi mag-arcade ng mag-arcade (ang sakit ng kamay ko dhil sa Time Crisis!), Comic Alley, tpos kumain kami, and then nanood ng Sisterhood of the Travelling Pants (ang ganda ng movie! Very inspiring tlga..n_n..). When we got to the house (Osan's), we decided to watch the TV special of Shaman King (Hehehe..funga fufu funga fufu..n_n..). After that we watched My Sassy Girl (Hehehe..ang cute ng movie! Ang gulo!..n_n..) Nanood din kmi ng OVA ng Kenshin pero kinlahati lng namin kc lhat kmi ay inaantok na kami especially si Krizsa. Hindi kmi natulog kaagad – daldalan, cell phone-cell phone, and kinig-kinig sa music muna kami. We slept at
(I think) 3am. Hehehe..new world record for me! The latest time I slept in my life! Bwahahaha..n_n..

Church:

I had one of the most unforgettable days of my life.

While Sunday School was going on and our teacher was giving instructions, I looked at the door hoping that my Kira would attend. Then, nagtaka ako.

Isip ko: Bakit may ulo?

When the door opened, I was surprised to see him, my Kira! Then, I slowly looked away. I had this cheeky smile on my face. It grew even bigger when my friends shot a look of ui..kinikilig sya!. While he was saying the answers of his group, I was completely mesmerized by his voice. Shocks! Ang gwapo tlga ng boses nya!

After Sunday School, we started to talk to him. Funny, I didnt feel even a bit nervous. Pakiramdam ko tlga ang gaan-gaan ng pakiramdam ko. He s great to talk to. ^smile^

While walking to McDo (Osan and Krizsa are so hungry, while I..lost my appetite), Krizsa told me that while I was reciting the answers of my group, my Kira was looking and laughing at me. He was laughing because I had such LLLOOONNNGGG answers. Bwahahaha..n_n..It is already natural to me to have long answers.

At home:

This was unexpected.

Guess what? Nag-YM kami. Hahaha..n_n..Unexpected tlga yun! Ang saya ng usapan namin..kwento tungkol sa kanya, tungkol sakin, at marami pang iba. We started chatting between 5-6pm then ended at 8 or past 8 (Haba noh?). Anyway, ibang klase tlga sya ang bait-bait.

Life is simply wonderful, isn’t it?

Sayonara..n_n..

PS: If you want to know the whole story of any of the topics (particularly the church thing and home thing), usap nlng tayo! Hehehe..n_n..

Cheska's thoughts at 3:11 PM

Haii..buhay nga naman..ang hirap talaga..

Yeah, all I can say is a sigh. Ouch! My head still hurts because of all the exams I took, plus, my body really wants to sleep the whole day.

Finally, our examination week is over! Gosh, I’m so tired! (I’ve been actually cramming, but it isn’t only me! Also my classmates! Haii..) Anyway, almost all of the exams were difficult (especially the damn A.P. and Health test! Grr…^smoke comes out of the ears and nose^)

[Alter-ego: Hmm…funny sight!!! Hahaha…n_n..]

[Me: Oh shut up! It was really difficult!!!]

I admit the fact I really studied, but I don’t know, I guess my best isn’t good enough. I even doubt it if I can make it to the Honor List. Haii..

However, on the bright side, I got only four mistakes in our Grammar exam (That probably makes me the highest! Yehey!) and if I’m not mistaken, three wrong answers in T.H.E.!!! LOL…not bad isn’t it? Hehehe..n_n..

For the other tests, Filipino was easy although I didn’t answer one question there (Honestly, I forgot the answer. T_T). Literature, well…I’m having doubts. Probably I’ll get an 85+ (Yeah…most likely.). A.P., it’s a secret (No way! I’m not going to tell it yet.). Algebra 2, well…all I can say is I passed. Health, no way! Journalism, I somehow answered most of the questions…Biology…waaahhh!!! If I managed to perfect the Mid-Quarter Exam, did I do it in the Quarterly exams a while ago? Aaahhh!!! But no way, I already found out that I have two incorrect answers. Haii…

I really don’t know if I’ll be one of the students included in the Top 10. Haii…

Sayonara..n_n.,

PS:

- Chapter 7 of my fanfic, “Destined to Be”, has already been updated. To read and review, go to LINKS and select either the PERMANENT LINK or the EASY LINK.

Cheska's thoughts at 9:54 PM

Yeah..sadyang magulo tlga ang buhay..khit ako n0h?!?! Yung environment kc eh..

A while ago..something happened in church..I dont want to tell the details..baka kc magkaroon ng issue eh. Honestly, I hndi ako yung tipong tao na nakikisama sa gulo..its juz not my nature and on the other side baka ako pa ang mukhang kontrabida but there are limitations. If theres an issue about me that is sooo negative and it reaches to other people [especially to him..]..iLL juz shut up..anyway there are more people who know the truth..n_n..

Anyway..ayokong ikuwento what happened a while ago..sabi ko nga ayoko magkaroon ng issue and most of all..ayoko may madamay na ibang tao..

Sayonara..n_n..

PS:
- He has relieved the tension I felt a while ago..even though I juz had a glimpse of him..tnx..n_n..
- Hehehe..kasama ako dun sa rehersal for the play/skit [whatever..] for the Youth Fellowship..Hmm..is this the launch of my acting career?Hahahahaha..joke lang..n_n..

Cheska's thoughts at 8:11 PM

PERKY = the feeling of mixed emotions (this is somewhat different to the real meaning in the dictionary..but this is my description of the word..)..

LOL..the title says it all..

This morning, I was so excited because we, the Sophomores, are going to watch the stage play of Florante at Laura at the UP theater. The play was great – the guy starring as Menandro, Florante’s best friend, was such a comedian, superb acting from all the cast members especially Konde Adolfo, and the costumes were beautiful. But there was one thing my mind got…–wenk-: Niño Muhlach stars as Florante. It was such a surprise for all of us, because we were expecting an Adonis and Narcisso-look-alike just like the description in the book, but…Niño is…short and stout (yuck!). Oh well, just like I said, I really loved the play.

When we were waiting for further instructions from our teacher outside the theater (this was after the play..), I…I…I saw the person who I fell -madly in love- with four years ago (he is the one I’m talking about..my three-year crush..). He looked fine – he had grown taller, his features remained the same, and his hair has gone from –pretty boy- look to an –astig- look (his hair has become shorter and is now all spiked up with some help from gel..). But, while I was looking at him, I felt a sudden pang in my heart. It felt like…someones pinching my insides. I couldnt help, but wonder why. I thought I had forgotten about him, but now that Ive seen him, I couldn’t help the fact that I’m feeling so…perky. A part of me wants to see him; however, another part refuses to give in because I already have a new and better one. Probably it’s just like my best friend, Pat, had said: -He is still your past. You will still feel it.-

Hours have passed, and my day was about to end. But before I went home, Ate Karen told me that the Youth Ushers (Im one of them..) are now divided into two groups – the first group is assigned to usher on the second Sunday of the month, while the second group is assigned to usher on the fourth Sunday of the month. Joyfully, I belong to the first group with Krizsa and Osan, but sadly, he belongs to the second group along with his own friends. ^Deep sigh^..this only means I wouldnt get to be his partner again and I will not be able to see him more often..^Another deep sigh^..Oh well, like I say, thats life. Anyway, I understand..^formed a small smile on her lips^.

When I got home, I told my mom everything about my day – from the play to Mr. 3-Year Crush, the lunch-out with some of classmates and teachers to my classmates as well, the –Ushering Matter- to him, and she to the-him-before-the-new-him. I am really open to mom – I couldnt keep any secrets from her. Anyway, talking to your mom can help you a lot. It makes you heart feel lighter.

THE EMOTIONS:

- excited
- a sudden pang in my heart
- confused
- joyfully
- sadly
- peaceful

See..I really feel so perky..

Sayonara..n_n..

PS:

- Some of my classmates, a couple of my teachers (Ms. Abad and Ms. Bautista), and the president of our school had a lunch-out at SM. We really had a fun time – eating together and went to Kameraworld for a photo shoot. I hope this happens in the more days to come..n_n..
- Eight months na kami ni Kira!!! LOL..
- Belated Happy Birthday kay –Monkey Boy-, si Fuyuki Shido ng Getbackers!!

Cheska's thoughts at 8:52 PM

RARE = bizarre, one-of-a-kind, exceptional, extraordinary

Hehehe..my word for the day..it juz perfectly describes him..

I can t believe it!!! He's sooooooo much smarter than the way I thought!!! He s like..not even HUMAN!!! He s like..a COORDINATOR (genetically-enhanced human being in the Gundam SEED/Destiny series..)!!!

To be honest, I ve NEVER EVER fallen for a guy like him. He s so rare and seems to be the one I've been looking for all of my life. Despite the fact that he s lacking one quality (which I don t really care about..), what really matters to me is the inside. He has everything that I want in a guy. I like him not because I was really impressed by his -intellectual ability-, but I m really falling for who he really is. He is such an exceptional and extraordinary person - I would probably never find anybody like him.

"You seem so perfect,
Handsome and meek.
You are the one I've been looking for,
You are the one that my heart beats for."

~Taken from my own poem, "Out of Reach"

PS:
>> The poem, "Out of Reach", was written by me. It's actually about how I felt about him at first..
>>I would probably post this in my next blog layout..

That's all..

Sayonara..n_n..

Cheska's thoughts at 7:29 PM