**[her bittersweet melodrama]**

What had hit me?

Why am I acting so crazy right now? A while ago, we had just lost the basketball game by ONE point. Grr...it irritated me so much. Oh well...

After the game, I headed to the canteen to buy a bottle of water because I had been screaming my lungs out (even for the past days). Then before I handed my money to the cashier, I noticed Carlos, a former classmate of mine way back during my Elementary years. I was quite angry because he hasn't been talking to me neither any of his former classmates. I gave him a light punch in the arm. When he finally noticed, we began talking. Suddenly, his eyes spotted my 3-year(s) crush. He waved "Hi!" to me and I returned it. On the other hand, Carlos began teasing me. When my ex-crush walked away, I said, "Hanggang ngayon yan parin ang intriga?!". When he parted, I heard some "ui!" from his table. Avoiding to think what those jerks were thinking, I just shrugged my shoulders.

That moment when my ex-crush waved "Hi!", something inside of me told me that I should say something else. Indeed, I had so many questions inside my head like, "How are you?", "Why aren't you online most of the time?", "How come you don't reply to my texts?", "How are you and your girlfriend?" (if they're still on with the girl he mentioned a year back), and a whole lot more. I didn't know what held me back.

I guess I know why am I acting so crazy. I had seen him. There were a lot of times we had crossed each other's paths, but neither of us spoke. We just pass each other like we don't know each other. It was just a while ago he had noticed me. I've been watching him a lot of times, but I think he doesn't know. I was happy. I was happy because he finally noticed me. Seeing that smile on his face when he waved, brought me back in time when I was so "in love" with him. I remembered why I fell for him; it was his smile that caught my eye. I missed him, even though he isn't anymore the one my heart belongs. I'm glad. I just pray that we would be able to talk a little longer.

Sayonara..n_n..

PS:
Sorry if I can't mention the name...I just feel that I don't want to.

Cheska's thoughts at 8:43 PM

I thought "bad luck" would continue to ruin my week, but for all that has happened to me on this day -- I never felt this much happiness.

We spent a lot of time together...again. But, I don't think he minds. We are both happy when one's presence is there or nearby. In my opinion, our friendship is becoming even closer than before. I'm not saying that our friendship is exclusive, if that's the way some people see it. I just want to spend equal time with all of my friends, and that includes him. Well, I'm going to miss him on Friday and on Sunday. I just hope there's a signal in Nueva Vizcaya so I could text him and my other ka-barkadz.

"Patience is a virtue." "Obedience has its reward." -- two sayings/proverbs that absolutely relate the incident that happened a while ago. Daddy arrived at home (past midnight) from his business trip, and guess what he bought me? An Mp3 player! I was really surprised at the early Christmas gift he bought for me. I've always wanted one. I even remembered that I always prayed to God that on Christmas or on my birthday my parents would give me one. But, it came so early! I even told my dad that it was too much. I also thought to myself that there are so many blessings God is giving to me. Now, I have proven that those two sayings/proverbs are so true..n_n..

My last words? Thank you, God, for giving me a great day and so many blessings.

Sayonara..n_n..

PS:
Chapter 8 of "Destined to Be" (my first fanfic) has already been updated! If you are interested to read it, please visit my "Links" page, and click "Access to My Fanfics". Thank you!

Cheska's thoughts at 5:07 PM

What a week!! So many things happened!!

Just this Monday, I suffered major menstral cramps. I even took a 500mg Mefenamic Acid tablet just to make the pain go away.

Then, our exams happened the following day. At the same time, I got so sick. I suffered from colds (until now), cough (dry and with phlegm), and hard time breathing. During the exam, I really couldn't think well because I somehow felt that my colds are going to my head. Gosh! I really had a bad week!!!

Behind all the bad luck entering my life, something really special happened last Wednesday. A certain someone texted me. He was asking about how I was and did I go to school even though my body is so weak. For a moment when he texted me, I suddenly felt that I wasn't sick anymore. I was really happy! I kept on reading that text over and over again! Was he concerned about my condition? Maybe..n_n..

Last Friday, Mom and I fought, but, everything is alright now. We settled everything already.

I think that's it. Sorry for making it too summarized. I just don't feel writing something long in my blog anymore..n_n..

Sayonara..n_n..

PS:

I got a 98% in my Biology Quarterly Exam!!! I did it!!! And again, I'm the highest!!!

Cheska's thoughts at 8:12 PM

Sorry if it took so long for me to post. I have such a busy schedule.

Anyway, this month s blogskin will be my favorite anime, the Gundam Seed Saga. Last Sunday, I had just finished watching Gundam Seed Destiny s (Gundam Seed 2) episodes 40-50. The ending was tragic because Rey (the guy with long, blonde hair who Osan thinks is gay, but is not), PLANTS Chairman Gilbert Dullindal (I just dont get this man s problem), and Captain Talia (who formerly had an affair with Gilbert) died inside the destruction of the Messiah Base. Fortunately, Kira and the rest of the Archangel crew were saved.

Finally, the series is over! I'm going to miss it so much! Anyway, there is good news. Instead of having a 5 minute OVA (Original Video Animation) just like in the Gundam Seed Series, Gundam Seed Destiny will be having their 40 minute OVA! It will be released at the same time Vol.13 will be out in the market. Yehey!!!

There is more great news!!! K-Zone magazine gave out awards in various categories in celebration of their third anniversary. In the Best Anime category, Gundam Seed was First Runner-Up with a percentage of 27.9%!!! The anime that claimed the #1 spot is of course is Naruto, which I don t care anymore because it keeps on repeating and repeating. Then, for the Best Anime Guy category, Kira Yamato (my 10-months anime crushie) bagged #1 with 37.5%!!! Yehey!!! Three cheers for Gundam Seed!!!

Lastly, if you noticed my welcome note it is a song that came from the GSD soundtrack. Wings of Words, sung by CHEMISTRY, is actually the fourth ending and my fifth favorite song from the series. By the coming weeks, I will be presenting my Top 5 favorite songs from the anime. Hope you enjoy!

Sayonara..n_n..

Cheska's thoughts at 4:41 PM

I’m still haunted by this feeling since last night. I miss him a lot already, even though we met and talked yesterday. But, I really miss him. To tell you the truth, I’m trying to stay away from him as much as possible. I’m just trying to stay away from rumors or “jumping into conclusions” from people. I even said to myself (even my mom):

“Let him do the talking first, then you talk. Don’t make the first move.”

When we crossed our paths yesterday, I was surprised that he was the first one to notice me. He was even the first to greet “hi”. It gave me quite a surprise because I was usually the first to notice and greet him. I felt glad that we’re actually feeling a lot closer than before. I also remembered what mom also said:

“Don’t ever get the boy to notice you. It is better just to steal a glance at him from time to time.”

I did what my mother told me to do. During class, I’ve been stealing glances at him. Whenever he catches me, I just turn my head to another direction – obviously, avoiding.

I like him a lot. Whenever I think of him, I always wish he’s here beside me right now – talking and cracking crazy jokes. This the first time I felt something like this. I’ve got so many crushes in the past, but the way I feel for him is somewhat different. I feel that I want to be with him always.

To end this entry, I just want to tell you that I know I’m still young for this. I know maybe many of you now don’t want me to get hurt because I have a fragile heart. I always hear that from my friends especially those who are so close to me. Don’t worry. I don’t want to cry again because of a guy again. I’m tired of being Ms. Teary-Eyed-Because-of-Love. I’ll be careful. I promise.

Right now, all I want to say to the person I madly like is:
“Kimi ga daisuki ga.” (Find out to know what it means. Hint: It’s Japanese.)

Cheska's thoughts at 9:42 PM