This is going to be my year-end report...2005 was the year when everything went topsy-turvy (especially my lovelife). I have to admit, their were a lot of frowns rather than the smiles. There were also a lot of lessons life has taught me. I've also experienced a lot of conflicts -- some that involve me in the case and some aren't. Some opened my eyes to the truth and some just left me in pain. But, behind every darkness, a light shines within. This year, I finally have a barkada -- a group where I really belong to in the first place. We had a lot of funny moments which will never disappear. I came back to my true Alma Mater -- Saint Claire School. I realized how much I miss the memories and the people that made me feel I am home. This is where I belong. This is where my home is.Of course, how could I ever miss my lovelife? I think I had three major crushes for this year. All of them were great guys. All of them had their on genuine charm that caught my eye. But, right now, there's only one left (and I'm sure u know who he is). I had a great time with these guys (even though, sometimes, I wish didn't have a crush on them..hahaha..just kiddin'!!Ü). Oh well, at least there are still great guys here on Earth..n_n..Indeed, God has given me another year -- a colorful year just like the fireworks displaying outside. There are ones that make your jaw drop in amazement or others that makes you want to wear earplugs next time.Ü And as Chapter 13 of my Book of Life closes, Chapter 14 is already waiting to unfold. Another year. Another year of smiles, tears, laughter, and not to mention, heartaches ahead of me. Life goes on for me, I must say. I hope my life will not yet end at the middle of my 14th year. I can't wait to start the coming year. I'm looking forward to all the surprises my life will encounter.I wish you and your family a Happy, Happy New Year!!!...and a Happy Birthday to me!!! Hehehe..n_n..
Cheska's thoughts at 5:41 AM
I don't know why I was so grumpy and silent a while ago, but fortunately, everything's alright now..So..our conversation didn't go exactly as planned -- that got me a lot worried. I practically ran out of topics to discuss. Even though he was sweet, funny, and really thoughtful, I can't help myself to stop worrying so much. Good thing, I talked about this to Mariel. I have to admit, I'm not really that patient especially when I'm crushing on somebody. But, in order to be successful, you definitely need tons of patience. Plus, I need to be glad because he's talking to me. You know, I'm excited on what's going to happen in the coming year. All smiles for me now!!! :DOh, btw..I've got highlights again..only a little bit thicker streaks..n_n..
Cheska's thoughts at 6:12 AM
I was supposed to post this last night. Unfortunately, I lost track of time and got carried away by the conversation me and my friends had...
I decided to go online again in case he would show up to. Funny -- we both showed up at the same time! (According to my friends, we were like fated. Hahaha..) When I was about to say "hi", a window popped up and he said "hi" to me first. He then asked me how was my Christmas (Seems to me that he isn't shy anymore..n_n..). When we got to know a little more about ourselves, I began to realize how much we have in common.- We both came from a place with the word "Nueva" in the name.
- We both have one sibling.
- We are both palabiro to them.
- We both can't think of any words to say in our testimonials for each other. (We've just known each other since the Cheering Practice.)
- We both want to discover what other qualities we possess.
- We actually don't like being in position.
Hehehe..kilig n0h?! But, there's one thing we absolutely don't have in common. Guess what guyz? His favorite subject is MATH. I have to admit, I'm only beginning to like Math. It's not my favorite subject. See? He's the most unusual guy I ever had a crush on. Look, he's an athletic guy, but he has the academic brain. In short, that's plus points for a guy like him. Another thing, he is very humble. I told him that he did a great performance during the Intramurals, but he says he isn't that good.
You know, he's really a good guy. He's just who he is. Thank heavens, there is still guy like him on Earth. I can't wait to know more about him..n_n..
Cheska's thoughts at 7:53 PM
Ever since that very day...I've made a simple wish...And now, it came true...On the night of Christmas Eve...I'm having the greatest Christmas ever!!! Guess what, peepz?! Jim just added me in his YM!!! Aaaaahhhhh!! I could just scream (But, actually, I'm screaming with joy right now!! :D). Well...thanks to Mariel (You're really the #1 dude!!!). She was the key to unlock the door of happiness. Anyway, some of you maybe wondering what Jim and I talked about. Umm...nothing really serious -- juz getting to know one another, only, little by little. He even added me in his Friendster account!!! Hahaha..there's one photo of him if you want to know who he is. :DOkay, some of you might ask why am I falling head over heels for this guy. For those who have seen him, he isn't the type of guy who has the look of a commercial model. He's just simply cute (in spite of his big nose..). I like guys who have this genuine charm like being really good at a certain area (musical, athletic...you get my point..). In Jim's case, well, he's tall so that makes him a great basketball player (I've seen him play in the Intramurals and I must honestly say, I was impressed by his performance) and a member of the Science Club in which I find unusual for a guy who likes playing basketball. He isn't the honor pupil type, but he seems to be an average student. He's a quiet type, but a great one to talk to (especially now that we've chat). Hehehe..okie..enough of this kilig stuff! I'm starting to look like a tomato here! Hehehe..Everyone's having a good time including Jo and Mariel. But, behind all the smiles and laughter, let us not forget the reason for this season. Today is HIS birthday. HE is the real reason why we're here and having a wonderful life.~Lord, thanks for everything. May you continue to make everybody's Christmas special like mine. :DMerry Christmas everyone!!! Mwah!!! :D
Cheska's thoughts at 6:30 AM
Waaahhh..naiinis tlga ako pag wala magawa!!!Ang boring dito sa bahay!!!(sigh) Ehem...finally got those wordz out. Promise me, it's really boring here at home. I even thought of playing with my saliva for a change (joke!! hahaha..it's hard to imagine ok? hahaha..). Highlights of the day? (There are still a few highlights even though my day was a bore) Well, for starters, the song "ULAN" by Cueshe just keeps ringing in my head. I find the song nice (sorry Pat). But, I'm not a Cueshe fan. Later that afternoon, I felt bad for the rest of the day. I won't say the details. It's just I felt angry at my mom. Now, I feel quite better already -- thanks to Abbie and Pito. Btw, check out Pito's blog...I just flooded his tagboard. (Evil laugh) Hahaha..*cough* *cough* *cough*..blasted these furballs!! Hehehe... I also read the reviews for the 3rd chapter of my 2nd fanfic, Love Takes Up the Glass of Time. Please read and leave your thoughts and your suggestions for future chapters. Thank you!!That's it for this day!Advanced Merry Christmas to everyone!!Remember your Noche Buena, peepz!!
Cheska's thoughts at 3:54 AM
I just had the most wonderful time in my 13-year old life..I have to admit that yesterday was indeed such a busy day. In the morning, we took the final set of exams (and take note of this...we had FOUR exams on this day, namely: Values Education, Health, Chemistry, and Filipino). When everything was over, it was time for our Christmas party inside the classroom. Honestly, it wasn't really party because there wasn't any music around the house. The only fun time we had was when all of us opened the presents we received from the Kris Kringle and when it was time to eat. Oh well...at least it was already the end of our miseries.Later that afternoon, it was now time for me to go to the Youth Christmas Party in our church. I absolutely had a great time there especially when Princess and Albie showed up. Guyz, I have to tell you -- they were really pretty and honestly, they even look prettier than me (no kidding!). Anyway, I laughed a lot while the party was going on. Pito was the host so maybe most of you probably know how corny he really is. I didn't know why I laughed a lot at his jokes, but I guess it's because it really sounded corny and mababawa lang talaga kaligayahan ko. But I have to admit, he was a great host. And then I finally knew why he was holding a script...he played the voice of Big Brother in the play (That was the theme for the Christmas Party). I even teased him a little when the show was over (I started calling him kuya). Hahaha...I really enjoyed my time being there.Now, for the main event, the High School Dance. We (Albie, Princess, and I) didn't arrive at the dance on time because we let the Youth party finish and we were caught in a major traffic jam. When we arrived, we were greeted by our other friends (Mariel, Claire, Recyn, Lea, and Michael). Oh, btw, Mariel looked really pretty with her unique style in fashion. But out of the corner of my eye, I noticed that my crush, Jim glanced at me for a while. I grinned shyly when he wasn't looking anymore, but I noticed one thing: He was also wearing the same color combination like mine...orange and blue! Ok...I won't argue with my mother again about what to wear anymore (she was the one who insisted me to wear pants). Serendipity sure can play tricks on people! Then, for the whole night, all we did was dance like crazy on the dance floor! And guess what my friends told about me?! They said that they never knew that I was such a party girl. Well, it's just because I am one of the quiet ones in school, but when it's time to party, I shift to my party mode and dance the night away! Everytime we were dancing, I always try to steal a glance to where Jim was sitted. I have to admit he looks incredibly cute. To be honest, I wasn't only dancing just to have fun, but I was also dancing just to make him notice and ask me if I wanted to dance with him. When we all sat back to our tables, I noticed that Jim often looked back to where we are sitted. When the DJ's played the slow music, my heart leaped. I was already impatiently waiting for him to ask me. Unfortunately, that didn't happen. Anyway, I decided to push that thought anyway and continue to dance the next set of party music. When the night almost ended, Carlos, a former classsmate of mine, pulled Jim with him and introduced him to me. While Carlos was doing the talking, I can't help notice how Jim can't look at me straight in the eye. He was somewhat...uncomfortable (Is it because I'm already right in front of him?) But, behind his discomfort, I could clearly see he's wide smile on his face (Maybe if the lights were on, I could even see him blushing. Luckily, they weren't turned on.) Then and there, the boys left (Carlos was teasing him on the way back. Poor Jim!) and I resumed dancing the night away. Finally, the dance ended. But before I left, I almost forgot to say goodbye to Claire, so I went back. But when I looked back, I saw Jim with a girl! And it looks like they were exchanging cell phone numbers! I tried to see who the girl was, but my parents were already waiting for me. I suddenly felt uncomfortable and left. Oh, how I wished it was Claire. How I wished Jim was asking my cell number from her!Whew! This entry was sure long! But you know, last night was the greatest time I ever had. It was one of the most memorable moments I ever experienced as a teenager. Really, that night I was really feeling I was a teenager. I was surrounded by tons of party people (including my friends), my crush looked incredibly handsome, and I had 100% pure, clean fun. I even felt that I went to 100 night clubs that night because of the fun I had! Well, as for Jim, I'm still thinking of him up to now. I even remember what Lea told me. "He is obviously trying to come near to you, but he can't." You know that really made my head tick. I wonder if he has feelings for me as I to him. All of my friends think that he has a crush on me based on his behavior, but I don't want to jump to conclusions anymore. Oh well, it it's true, he would right up to me and state his feelings. In return, I would be happy and might/would tell him what I feel for him too. If not and everything was just plain coincidence, I'll just keep quiet and continue to admire him secretly. Anyway, that's all for me now...Bye! And advanced Merry Christmas!
Cheska's thoughts at 4:08 AM
I never thought that something like this would happen...I was supposed to delete all the Sent Messages in the Sent Items box, accidentally, I deleted ALL the messages including my folders. I tried to stop the process, but it was done. I cried. I felt angry at myself for doing such a stupid mistake. All those messages were important to me especially those from my ka-barkadz and family. I continued to cry bitterly while, my mother tried to comfort me. I couldn't stop myself. It was too hard to accept. I even asked God the reason why this kind of things need to happen. I wasn't even able to study well.After a while, my tears subsided. Mom told me that it was alright compared to what happened to her when she graduated. She even told me that probably God has a purpose behind it. When I knew I was already better, I even joked that my messages memory was full anyway. Finally, I smiled and laughed. Yeah, those precious messages were already consuming a lot of space from my phone memory. My mother even added that after all this year's going to end and there's only a few days away before the New Year (and my birthday!), why not have new messages too? Chapter 13 will finally close, and Chapter 14 will soon start. I finally felt better...Thank God, mother was here...I don't want to cry anymore over that mistake for the coming days. I have a great week ahead of me. I'm included in the SLT Graduation. I'm going to attend the CCBC Christmas Party. I'm going to have fun at the Youth Christmas Party and High School Dance on Monday. I don't want that mistake to take over my weekend nor what I felt a while ago (I felt confident that I'm going to have a 9 of 9 in my Quarterly Exam in Math..n_n..).I'm finally feeling better...
Cheska's thoughts at 5:56 AM
Hehehe..long time no blog people!!! Well, I've been busy with other things such as my studies and my fanfics..n_n..Ok, I'll just give you the latest updates about me:- Read my last post? Well, everything's alright now, but there's just one BIG twist. I even spoke about my feelings for Jim! Hahaha..long lasting!
- I'm feeling excited at the same as nervous for the upcoming High School Dance. I've already planned what to wear, but will he ask me to dance with him?
- There are new fanfics in my upcoming list -- Three Wishes, Three Words and Who You Are. Check them out at http://www.fanfiction.net. Please support!!!
- Recently updated Destined to Be's 9th chapter entitled "Head Turner" and is now currently writing Love Takes Up the Glass of Time's 3rd chapter, "Yearbook". I have been inspired to write lately!
- Having lesser hours of sleep nowadays...
- Thought of a great idea for my scrapbook in Florante at Laura. Hehehe..juz wait and see!
- I already thought of what I want this Christmas. I told my mom that I want the book, Chicken Soup for the Teenage Soul on Love and Friendship and/or a sketch pad. I've realized that I have a talent in drawing, so I want to enhance it with the right materials. (I even drew Ginji from the Get Backers (only in his stuff toy form) because of boredom! Hahaha..)
- Hmm..what else? Oh, I remember. I love the song "I Still..." from the Backstreet Boys. I don't know why, but it has a big impact on me.
I think that's all of it. A few days left until Christmas and my birthday!!! Hahaha...
Toodles, peepz!!!
Cheska's thoughts at 2:57 AM
