**[her bittersweet melodrama]**

Haii..it has been four days since there were no classes. It was supposed to be something I should be happy of, instead I'm stuck here at home doing my requirements (especially the Florante at Laura scrapbook).

However, I did get out of the house last Saturday. Mommy, Bea, and I went to Market! Market! since my Field Demo was postponed, my sister had no ballet classes, and my mom needed a day-off. We first watched the movie, "Close to You". Natatawa nga ako dahil sobra ako nakaka-relate sa movie. Parehas kasi yung mga asar sa akin dati - mataba at boyba. Hehehe...

I bought three t-shirts! Yehey! (Although I didn't get to find a khaki bag.)

Hmm...I think that's all. Yeah, I know walang masyadong news puro nasa bahay kasi ako eh.

Babye!

"You are torn between a habit and a dream. You are torn sa taong nakasanayan mo nang kasama while the other one ay yung gusto makasama sa buhay."

~ Kapatid ni Bea Alonzo sa movie (Favorite line ko toh! n_n)

Cheska's thoughts at 10:39 PM

Grr...I blame those nonsense rallies for this!!!

Before this happened, I was so looking forward on the day our Field Demonstration/Field Demo. I was confident that we could possibly the champions because of the uniqueness of our dance numbers as well as the perseverance and dedication of my classmates. Now, because of those imbecile people out there in the streets, our goal will still have to wait.

To make things clear, I'm not blaming the school. I blame those people who are just protesting for their own selfishness. Like Mike Defensor said a while ago in the press conference, "When the economy is finally going strong, that is the time those people hold those stupid rallies." I must say that I am really mad and disappointed at the situation right now. Who wouldn't be especially if you worked so hard just to choreograph the steps? Bottom line is...I was filled with many expectations as well as the excitement, but things like this happen.

Oh well, so much for that, there are some things that still makes me smile on this day:

1) I drew Shinn Asuka, a character from Gundam Seed Destiny, to cast the role of Konde Adolfo in my scrapbook. The result was wonderful! Even though it isn't as perfect as the original picture, I'm happy with the accomplishment. He even looks more handsome than Florante! Hahaha...

2) While doing the scrapbook, my mother and I heard a song on the radio by Karen Carpenter. The title was "Close to You". My mother then began teasing me because it suites me well (that's according to her opinion!). On the other hand, I was trying hard to focus on my work. Haii...mas kinikilig pa ang nanay ko kaysa sa akin! Bwahahaha...

3) I will be able to watch the final and super-kilig episode of one of my favorite animes, "Pretear", tomorrow morning.

4) I have more time to finish the tons of projects I have to do.

5) I will be able to have a peaceful beauty sleep! Hehehe...kailangan yan talaga ng mga babae!

Here are also some of the results of various tests I took in Tickle:

My Real Color is: BROWN

Description:

A credible, stable color that's reminiscent of fine wood, rich leather, and wistful melancholy. Most likely, you're a logical, practical person ruled more by your head than your heart. With your inquisitive mind and insatiable curiosity, you're probably a great problem solver. And you always gather all of the facts before coming to a timely, informed decision. Easily intrigued, you're constantly finding new ways to challenge your mind, whether it's by reading the newspaper, playing a trivia game, or composing a piece of music. Brown is an impartial, neutral color, which means you tend to see the difference between fact and opinion easily and are open to many points of view. Trustworthy and steady, you really are a brown at heart.

~ 99.9% true except for the statement, "...you're a logical, practical person ruled more by your head than your heart." Why do I say this? Well, here's why...

Francesca, you follow your heart when it comes to success

Description:

You're an impassioned individual who just can't suppress your ideals. You've got a strong sense of right and wrong, and want to let people know when they've crossed the line. Sure, there are times when you sit back to hear both sides of an argument. But people had better stay out of the way when your fiery passions take hold.But just because you can be a bit of a rebel with a cause, it doesn't mean you're incapable of being understanding and compassionate. It's because you're so invested in your ideas and interests that you can work so tirelessly toward your goals and speak up for what you believe in. So keep pouring your heart into it. With conviction like yours, you're sure to succeed!

~ This is so true. It also has a connection with my real color. This side of mine is very noticeable only when I am school - either when debates are held or I stand up for my answer and what I believe in.

Francesca, your most unique quality is that you're unusually Conscientious

You are the kind of person others depend on. You're competent, self-disciplined, and able to carry through with any plan you create. You've just got it together. You're also good at weighing the pros and cons of any situation and making sound, well-informed decisions. Compared to others who are conscientious, you are unusually competent, knowing what to do when needed, and confident that you will do it well. Only 2.3% of all test takers have this unique combination of personality strengths.

~ Ows, really?! Ok, I see the connection again. This is fun.

Hmm...next time, I'll try out the others.

++ In case you want to attend our Field Demo, feel free to inform me if you're interested. It's on March 4, 1:30 pm, at Saint Claire School, Villa Corrina Subdivision, Tandang Sora, Quezon City. See ya!

Cheska's thoughts at 11:34 PM

All I can say is...ang lupet ng fellowship namin kanina! Hehehe..n_n..

Ok, let's get serious. Ate Karen and I talked a while ago before the fellowship started. Probably, she's right about how I feel for Jim. Even though I'm really furious with what he did to me, there is still that feeling that tells me that I want to know the truth. I don't know really what is the real story, but it's probably better not to mind about it anymore because there's something more.

One of my greatest fear is to fall for one of my friends. Probably most of you would wonder why, but I have this principle in life that "Friendship is more valuable than crushing on somebody". Friendship is such a treasure to me, so it's hard when it will be shattered. Probably, I'm just rejecting the feelings I have for him again, because I like him better when we are friends. Anyway, let me leave this post with simple message regarding my feelings for this person...

"ABANGAN ANG SUSUNOD NA KABANATA..."

Cheska's thoughts at 4:26 AM

Ok, I know it has been quite a long time since I last posted, but I'm back with the latest buzz on me.

A while ago, our school held the 13th Annual Journalism Congress. I was really excited for the past few days because I know this is my time to shine. I missed journalism a lot when I was in First Year, so I couldn't help but feel so happy to write again.

With enough experience, I picked Copyreading and Headline Writing in both English and Filipino. (The group leader asked me 2 days ago what categories I want , so expect that everything went smoothly.)
To kick off, we had a little ceremony that was very interesting because the guest speaker was a former student from Saint Claire, a valedictorian in both Elementary and High School, received a degree in Speech and Communication in UP, and graduated as Cum Laude (hehehe...memoryado!). Afterwards, one of the teachers explained the contest rules as well as the room assignments (since my categories are the same, I don't have to transfer to any room! Hehehe...). Then, the time had come and the English categories came first.

At the assigned room, I started to review all the things I need to remember. When the papers were given, I was surprised to see how similar it was with one of my papers that I had reviewed a while ago. Now I don't want to be rude or too proud, but I have to say that the contest piece was quite easy on my side. It was news, and I'm most of the papers given to me in the workshop, as far as I can remember was in the News category, plus it was about people who died in the fire. It was really quite easy, although I'm not that 100% confident that I would belong in the Top 5 (Sir Paul, the school's Journalism adviser, will pick only the Top 5 contestants per category) because there are a few students who knows copyreading quite well. Anyway, I just have to wait for the results.

Next was my Filipino category. Sports news! But, before the contest I told my bestfriend that I was hoping there wouldn't be any sports article I need to edit. Oh well, might as well go with the flow. It was quite easy just like the one in English, so I didn't have to worry that much. I don't want to be an airhead here, but I must say the people who belong to the Honor or Outstanding List weren't there (except there were 2 I think). So, I thought there would be a great chance for me to win in this category. Sabi nga ng mga naniniwala sa swerte, "'Pag sinuswerte ka naman". Hehehe... (This is only an expression that fits really well on what happened today; I don't believe in luck.)

So, the contest went really well. I don't want to be that confident to assure myself that I belong to the top students, although my classmates are pretty sure. Anyway, all I have to do is too wait patiently until the winners are announced on the Recognition Day. (For those who know me very well, I'm sure you know why I underlined the word "patiently".)

"What happened to you and Jim?" that's the question you would probably ask. (Eto na, Ate Karen, with all the juicy details pa...) Ok, let me rewind the events. At the bus on our way to Villa Corrina, I suddenly felt very nervous (as in naninikip na ang dibdib ko and it was getting quite hard to breathe). I know that I'm not nervous because of the contest, instead it was Jim. Even though I got all the encouragement I needed, there is still that fear in me. When we arrived, I held on to one of my classmates for support for I fear that my legs would loose their steadiness. The teachers showed us where our designated groups are sitted. When I sat down, guess who was in front of me. It was Jim and "the girl"! They were only seperated by a little guy who I think is one of the honor students. At first I didn't know who it was, but when he shot a glance at the back, I just realized it was really him. Lucky for him and "the girl" because they were on the same group. As everything was going on, I noticed that he was looking at the back often. I don't know what is he looking at, but if it was, I don't care anymore.

During the break, I told Johanna about who were in front of me. She replied by saying, "Ano? Naglalandian ba?" Hahaha...she really knows what to say.

Jim and I didn't get to talk, which was a good thing or else the next thing he would see are stars. However, I have come up with a couple of questions in mind. Am I really angry at him? What was I feeling a while ago, with the distance between us? The feeling was unknown to me. I couldn't name it at all. I don't know what to think.

Cheska's thoughts at 12:48 AM

A lot of things happened this week. At the same time, a lot of emotions and thoughts formed inside me...

I have a temper. Of course, the people who are very close to me know this very well, so as much as possible they try not to get in my way. However, others don't know about this fact. Because I'm so quiet, calm, and cool most of the time, they would start bothering me. I hate people who bothers me everyday. I have one classmate who acts that way. He keeps on bothering me and it's getting on my nerves! In my opinion, that kind of behavior is so immature. I try to understand him because he's just a new student, but I guess he's naive. He doesn't see how much I'm getting irritated at him. Anyway, just a few more weeks, my blood would finally calm down.

Another classmate I have to deal is someone who loves talking about herself. I've noticed this quite sometime, but I just pushed the thought aside becuase I'm glad that we regained the close bond we once had. But then, she sounds so selfish. I don't know if I'm the only one who noticed this but, I've seen some looks. I want to tell her before things could go bad, but she seems so happy especially when we're together.

Oh Lord, how could I deal with these type of people?

++ By the way, just an update on the Aftermath of My Heartbroken Moment, I'm currently feeling a really better. I was touched at the messages in my Cbox. I'm so glad at the thought that a lot of people cared for me. Ate Karen, Mark, thank you a lot for the messages. I feel so blessed to have people like you. I pray that you would continue to help and cheer up people.

Cheska's thoughts at 6:57 PM