There are a lot of things to smile about in this world -- the people who care for you, the feeling of being alive, and the success you have attained in life. I couldn't believe I did it. Finally, I reached the Finals in all three categories I participated! It's like I'm living in a dream. But this isn't a dream, it's reality. I did the best I could, and this was the result.
"Oh Lord, thank you for rewarding my perseverance and the passion to be one of the finalists. I offer all these for you were the one who helped me get through in this competition. Thank you, Lord. Thank you." But this isn't only the accomplishment I am thankful about. This week's Tuesday (or was it Wednesday), I was nominated as one of the Exemplary Students in our class. I was happy, but wasn't that confident enough for there is another student who is better than me in most of the criteria given. The next day, our class started to vote who they chose. As expected, that other student won. I was really quiet when our adviser announced the winner, because...I honestly wanted that award more than she does. I don't mean to be selfish or not being a sport, but it's just painful to know that it is almost like nothing to her, while for me, it's such a big thing. I'm not saying that she doesn't care because she also happens to be my friend. It's just hard to accept the reality.
On the bright side, it is already enough for me to be one of the nominees. Look at it this way - out of 28 students, only four were chosen and that includes you. And besides, I feel that I'm already an Exemplary Student even without the certificate or medal, because I am already one in my own little way.
Cheska's thoughts at 5:12 AM
life's sweetness..
The sound that sting one's ears, the smell of damp paper left outside to humidify and dehydrate, the unconscious minds and treacherous hearts were all but a part of the melodrama.
