This doesn't feel right, but this is the truth...is it? I know it isn't right to feel this 'feeling' inside, but what can I call it? I don't know. I just feel uncomfortable and uneasy whenever I think of that 'genuine smile' on my face. It doesn't seem right. Ok, visualize this:
You love eating your favorite crackers. Because of this, you eat a pack almost everyday. All of a sudden, you saw a commercial about new crackers. The advertisement was so great, it made you want to buy it. So, the following grocery day, you asked your mother to buy that new crackers you saw on TV.
I don't know where the heck I got that idea, but here's a much simpler example:
You have a younger brother who loves playing those robot toys that make noisy sounds, walk then tumble, and can only raise its arms. After a day in school, you were surprised to see those toys scattered on the floor. Frustrated, you try to find your brother to pick up his own mess. Surprise! Surprise! You saw your younger brother playing online games in your family computer.
Ok, I hope you get the idea now. Well, what I'm pointing out is that...you used to like/love this but then you shift to another in a blink of an eye. I hope I'm getting somewhere with what I'm saying.
I feel terrible with all these emotions, thoughts, and others jammed inside my small frame. Haii... I definitely need help on this one.
Cheska's thoughts at 6:56 AM
life's sweetness..
The sound that sting one's ears, the smell of damp paper left outside to humidify and dehydrate, the unconscious minds and treacherous hearts were all but a part of the melodrama.
