**[her bittersweet melodrama]**

Just like every little girl, my mother used to read to me stories wherein Cinderella left one of her glass slippers, a kiss woke up Aurora from her sleep, Belle waltzed with the Beast, and Jasmine went on for a magic carpet ride. Because of my innocence, I believed that fairytales can happen. And...

It did -- after almost a decade.

He was close to perfection. He has everything I pictured -- no, he has MORE than everything I ever pictured. I found him. My prince.

Just like all fairytales, there were opposing forces and magical fairies. Those who and which didn't want to give me a happy ending made my eyes swollen from crying and my heart confused. Fortunately, I had fairies. With a twirl of their wands, my prince and I grew closer. Friends to be exact.

This was my fairytale -- a lot like many of the stories you know. But unlike Snow White and Cinderella, it didn't end with a kiss from a prince. It actually ended because the princess no longer loves the prince. She still treasured what they shared before, but the prince was busy for the King's kingdom. She will no longer see him that often nor speak to him like old times. They have different paths to walk on, so the princess lets go of his hand.

I lived in my fairytale for almost two years already. Even though it didn't go according to what I had in mind, I still believe that fairytales can really happen. I just hope that my next fairytale will finally be a "Happy Ever After".

Cheska's thoughts at 1:43 AM

I am well aware of the fact that I haven't posted anything recently. And the alibis that I've been using before are still the reasons why. I'll be posting a lot next time. For now, I have to confront my feelings.

Three days ago, it has just occured to me that I will soon be facing a painful reality. In two months, he will be setting off to college while I will still have my last year in high school. We will rarely see and communicate each other because we're going to be too busy fulfilling our dreams. Terribly sad and painfully true.

I know I will soon enter college, but still there is no chance of meeting him as frequently as before. We're still going to be distances away from each other like polar ends on the opposite sides of the globe. (Well, it kinda sounds exaggerating but you probably know what I mean. On the other hand, it might sound possible.) Again, terribly sad and painfully true.

Considering these realizations, I have come up with a difficult conclusion. I'm letting go of my feelings for him. They're of no use anymore. Plus, we'll get to meet other people -- many more people that are so much better. And probably, we'll get to fall in love with them. Besides, this game all along was one-sided. I was the only one who was interested. I need to move on. It would be for the better. Especially for the future.

Cheska's thoughts at 6:27 AM