Saturday, April 07, 2007
Terribly Sad and Painfully True...

I am well aware of the fact that I haven't posted anything recently. And the alibis that I've been using before are still the reasons why. I'll be posting a lot next time. For now, I have to confront my feelings.

Three days ago, it has just occured to me that I will soon be facing a painful reality. In two months, he will be setting off to college while I will still have my last year in high school. We will rarely see and communicate each other because we're going to be too busy fulfilling our dreams. Terribly sad and painfully true.

I know I will soon enter college, but still there is no chance of meeting him as frequently as before. We're still going to be distances away from each other like polar ends on the opposite sides of the globe. (Well, it kinda sounds exaggerating but you probably know what I mean. On the other hand, it might sound possible.) Again, terribly sad and painfully true.

Considering these realizations, I have come up with a difficult conclusion. I'm letting go of my feelings for him. They're of no use anymore. Plus, we'll get to meet other people -- many more people that are so much better. And probably, we'll get to fall in love with them. Besides, this game all along was one-sided. I was the only one who was interested. I need to move on. It would be for the better. Especially for the future.


Cheska's thoughts at 6:27 AM