Wednesday, July 18, 2007
What Almost Happened Was a Sacrifice

Since yesterday, I was torn up choosing between two things - something I really want to do since it only comes once in your life and another that may put me in a safe corner to leave no regrets. With so much confusion in mind, I ended up choosing the second, which is to attend the 2nd session of my review for the UPCAT. But even though I have reached up a decision, I wasn't happy. I even ended crying in my seat during class because of the overflowing disappointment. Aren't decisions made for someone not to regret anything?

I asked a few people to give me advice. It was better to accept the once-in-a-lifetime oppurtunity. I was chosen along with some selected students to represent the school in an inter-school economic congress in UP. Now, who would say no to that? It is a big privilege! But, somehow, my mother won't agree to it. Reviewing for the UPCAT is more important, she said. Great, just great.

But, as a familiar saying goes, "If there's a will, there's a way." I did just that. I called the review center a while ago and the 2nd session is also offered on Sunday. As long as the session isn't full, I can definitely go! The good news is I can go to the congress! Yehey! Now, I can attend both scheduled activities without leaving any regrets!
(I just wish that my mom is proud to me, since she isn't showing any sign that she's happy about my decision.)

"Lord, thank You for making a way for me not to leave any regret. Thank You for answering my prayer. I am truly grateful for all you have done. Thank You as well for the people, especially Lea, who touched my heart when she told me that she would support me whatever decision I will come up with. May You open the heart of my mother concerning this matter. All I want to do is for her to be proud of me. Please do so, Lord, so my heart will be at peace."


Cheska's thoughts at 3:02 AM