Saturday, March 25, 2006
The First Week of My Summer Vacation..

I apologize for not updating for a week..


This Week's Happenings:


March 20 (Monday):

It was our Clearance Day and the final day where we get to experience being a High School Sophomore. On the first part of the day, everyone was busy trying to get teachers sign their clearances, pass the remaining requirements, and set up for the party happening in the classrooms.

After all that has been said and done, it was time for the biggest event happening in our campus -- the first ever Band Festival. This event was suggested by the high school students (not to mention almost all of the boys in our class) and was carried out by the teachers (which they think was pretty cool) then to the principal. Surprisingly, our principal allowed us and was even excited (although, the event only happened in the Masbate campus and not on the other side).

Two bands performed onstage - the "Band-Aid", which was composed of the First Year students and our very own, "Souled Out". The FY did a great job having the audience all hyped-up, until it was time for the "Souled Out". They sang a number of OPM songs from famous bands like Hale and Kamikazee.

The most unforgettable part of the program was when the band sang "Narda" (originally by Kamikazee). Everyone (especially the Lower Grades) stood up and sang along with the band! Wow, it felt like the school was shaking because of all the energy! It really RoKzZz..!!

That time, everyone was having the time of their lives even the teachers (young and old). You could clearly see the smiles on their faces and the excitement in everyone's eyes. Then, I thought to myself, "This shouldn't be held only once in a while, but yearly!"

SY 2005 - 2006 has been the most wonderful School Year for all of us -- the Second Year - Wisdom.

Hopefully, when we become Juniors, the fun will never stop...

March 21 - 24 (Tuesday to Friday):



Hehehe..ito ang bago kong pinagkakaguluhan!

Meet Tezuka Kunimitsu of my latest favorite anime, "Prince of Tennis"!

Gwapo niya dba?!

March 25 (Saturday):

Ate Karen joined along by Krizsa had a little chit-chat on the latest happenings in our lives. I was surprised when Ate Karen gave me a CD with a special note behind the CD cover. "Thank you, Ate Karen. Love you!!!"



Cheska's thoughts at 10:08 PM




Sunday, March 19, 2006
The Art of Letting Go...

[These thoughts dated back March 14, '06]...

How can life be so cruel? It all started out in acquaintance. We began to develop communication. Then, I felt like the world crashed down on me.

It was my fault...really. I shouldn't have barged into someone's life. I was wrong -- very wrong.

Last night, I read his message archive in my YM. I missed all his conversations we had. Those smilies, jokes, and even the simple, "eh ikaw? Ano ginagawa mo?" -- everything we talked about became so precious to me. Now, he seems so far away. I couldn't reach him -- no matter how far I could stretch my arms. We met each other's eyes yesterday. I wanted to say "Hi", but he immediately looked away. What's more painful is that the lines on his face showed nothing as well as his eyes.

I guess he really loves her. Even though, he denied the truth to me, I know my eyes are not deceiving me. They are "on". There is even enough proof. It's over. I'm over.

One night, I thought of telling him how I feel for him. He wouldn't care, right? Why would a guy in a relationship care? However, one of my best friend's talked some sense into me. If I told him, I would only hope he could return my feelings. The worst thing is that when the girl gets to know about this, they may split up and I'm the one to blame. I don't want that to happen. I don't want to be the one to blame.

Well, the only thing I can do is forget Jim. Yes, I know how much it hurts. It hurts more than being rejected. I thought things would patch up again, but there's no hope at all anymore.

"I'm doing this for both our sakes. Those conversations we had will only be a memory. Thank you for your kindness. It was really nice knowing you. I wish you the best with Honey. Goodbye..."

...Maybe it’s best you leave me alone
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow

When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight
It ends tonight

A falling star
Least I fall alone
I can’t explain what you can’t explain
You're finding things that you didn’t know
I look at you with such disdain

~ "It Ends Tonight" by All-American Rejects


Cheska's thoughts at 4:37 AM




Monday, March 13, 2006
Araw ng Parangal..

I have soared higher...

Wow! Until now, I couldn't believe what just happened. It seems like a dream come true.

A while ago, we had the "Araw ng Parangal" or the giving out of special awards for students. I achieved a total of SIX awards, namely:

I am totally speechless. These are too much for me, especially winning the title of "Exemplary Student". Woah! I really don't know what to say.

To tell you the truth, I just only want a few, but God gave me sooo much than what I prayed for. Yeah, I'm sooo spoiled already, but happy with all of these.

I have really soared to greater heights...

Thank You, God for all these blessings you have given to me. Thank you to my parents, who have always supported me through thick and thin. Thank you as well to my classmates and subject teachers who are always there for me. And most of all, thank you to our adviser, Ms. Abad, who believed in me through all these months of learning and experiencing new things in life.

PS:

I just want to share how proud I am to these people:

Congrats to you guyz!!! :)



Cheska's thoughts at 12:43 AM




Saturday, March 11, 2006
It Has Been A Week..I Know..

I apologize for not blogging for a week already. I had been very busy with the schoolwork (see the dark circles around my eyes?) and the computer is always occupied by someone else. I'm sorry...

Anyway, I have to warn you. This post will be very long...

MARCH 4: Family Day (Field Demo)

We had our Field Demo/Family Day in the afternoon. God was so good for not letting the rain pour down even though there are already signs of dark clouds over our heads.

Our performance was a blast! You could clearly see in everyone's faces how they love it so much. One thing that is amazing is that we had great fluidity. Yehey!!! I'm so proud of you guyz!!!

Even though we gave our best shot and ours was one of the best (the 4th Yr had also a great number), I was very disappointed with the scoring system. The judges combined the students' performance and the results of the games and the number of guests per level. It was totally unfair for us. It was all because of the performance of the other two sections. The result of their number pulled us down. It was so unfair because, like I said, we had one of the best dances of the day. It was also biased. The judges were composed of 4 teachers from the other campus, while two from our campus. Of course, you would expect that they are more on the other side. Grr...how I wish the panel of judges were from other schools and the scoring system would be a lot different.

Anyway, I'm glad this was over. For the past weeks, I have been the leader and choreographer of the class. But, this is only the beginning people.

MARCH 6: Foundation Day - Mini Fair

That Monday was our Foundation Day or much better known as the Mini Fair. We, the Sophomores are in charge of the Marriage Booth. I was "on duty" most of the time so you probably could just imagine how many couples I've seen wedded. Our booth usually has the least number of customers, but surprisingly, they were a lot -- not to mention myself.

Yeah, I know, this will be shocker...

I was asking for a plastic bag from one of the kuya's becuase the bottles I collected during that day alone was already giving a pain. Then, two of my friends came to me and warned me that I'm going to be handcuffed. I turned back -- still waiting for that plastic bag. Next thing I knew, I saw Jim and two First Year girls approaching me! I tried to avoid them, but they were too persistent. So , being a natural good girl, I let them do what they want. The two of us walked around the campus -- without talking to each other. Whne I thought my nightmare would be over, we were brought to the Marriage Booth (Oh, I forgot to tell you. Since we are in-charge of the booth, we made a new rule that whenever a couple will be handcuffed, they go straight to our booth.) Along the way, a group of Second Year boys from the other campus approached us and asked Jim who is the girl thathe happens to be handcuffed with. When one of them said my name, I heard another one say, "Ang swerte mo naman Jim!" Great! I just want to pound him and tell him, "Anong maswerte dun?!" or something else. When we finally arrived at the "altar", all of the Second Year students were excited and more "kilig" than we are. In the middle of the ceremony, the "priest" (who happens to be one of the "sira-ulo" people I know), asked one of my class mates if the honeymoon comes before marriage. I know he was serious asking that question, but that really made me laugh. Then, I suddenly felt that there were more and more people surrounding us. Gosh! I was really starting to get embarassed. Anyway, here's my favorite part of the ceremony. instead of just sprinkling the "holy water" over our heads, the "priest" squirted the bottle all over Jim. Hahaha...he was really wet. Then, we had the recieving of rings (I said receiving because Jim just got the ring for himself. On the other hand, I already had one because I got it from a plastic earlier. :p) People urged us to kiss, but thank God for saving my beloved cheeks. Hehehe... We didn't get to sign a marriage contract because they ran out of stock. Thank God! Hahaha...

I know you would ask, "What's the feeling?" Honestly, I felt nothing. No, I'm not naive or numb, it's just probably the fact that it's really over between the two of us.

Although, everyone was so "kilig" over the moment, I know there was one person who isn't -- the girl. When Jim and I passed her along with a classmate, he [the classmate] asked Jim, "Uy Jim! Di ba dapat si Honey yan?" He wasn't joking. I could tell his voicec was really serious. When I looked back at the girl, I could tell the looks of her face that she was quiet, really quiet. Then, like sending a mental message to Jim, I thought, "Oo nga Jim, di ba mas OK pa sayo na si Honey ang ka-handcuff mo?" But I know he didn't want this.

I have a feeling one of my friends are behind this. Well, I hope she's happy now.

I was pissed off from the beginning of that moment 'til minutes after it.

I concealed this side of the story, but right now, I'm ready to reveal it to all of you who have been reading my posts since then. An hour after all that happened above, I sat on one bleacher. I was reviewing for the upcoming General Information Quiz Bee until my thoughts drifted to Jim. I was still angry at him. The memory of what he did to me left a scar in me that stings and burns whenever I see or feel his presence. I looked at the Jail Booth. He was there. I got my cell phone and started to text him saying that there was no use to get angry at him anymore. At first, he was bewilered. But, when I told him that I forgive him already, we were OK again.

I know I have sinned. God took him away from me because He knew he wasn't the right one for me and He's just keeping me away from trouble. But, I don't know what to do. Last thing I knew, I was in a state of confusion.

MARCH 9: Quiz Bee Finals

I could clearly remember that I was quite nervous when I stepped on the grounds of the other campus when we, the finalists, got there for the quiz bee.

The first quiz bee was Spelling. The words were tough. I reviewed well enough, but it seems that only 1% of what I reviewed was given. When they were tallying the scores, I could feel my heart punding in my chest. To my surprise, I won! I'm the Spelling Bee Champion! Yehey!

When all of us thought that the Quiz Bees for the day are over, we were surprised when one of the teachers announced that today the Math and General Information will be held. Of course, we paniced.

We had Math after a minutes of waiting. No comment except for the fact that I'm not really good in Math.

Next was General Information. I have set my mind that I'll challenge myself to become a champion again. Unfortunately, my points weren't enough and there is someone better than me. But, somehow, landed 1st runner-up! Hehehe...not bad!

MARCH 10: Asian Food Festival

This is it. The event we have all been waiting for -- the first Asian Food Festival happening in our school.

There was a lot of tension happening in all of the groups since everyone wanted the prize. (The prize is that you and your group will not take the Finals in AP as well as in THE. It only means your automatically 100 in both. What a prize!) We only had a minimum of 45 minutes and a maximum of 60 minutes to prepare everything. You could just imagine how tense everyone is not to mention the audience as well.

After an hour, it was already time to announce the winners. Our group held hands because we knew we did our best. Here are the results:

Best in National Costume: Group 3 (Japan)

Best in Table Setting: Group 1 (Thailand)

Best in Food Preparation: Group 6 (China)

When the judge announce our group winning the third award, we couldn't contain our happiness! We're already exempted!

Then, our happiness was stopped when we heard that there is still an award for the Over-All Champion.

3rd Place: Group 3 (Japan)

2nd Place: None because there is a special reason...

1st Place: Group 1 and Group 6 (Thailand and China)

A tie! I couldn't believe my ears! We won! Our group won!


This week was the one of the most memorable ones in my life.

"Thank you God for everything you have given me. You have showered me with so much blessings. Even though most of the times I think that you are spoiling me so much, Lord, I'm grateful for everything. Thank you, Lord. Thank you."


Cheska's thoughts at 10:32 PM




Thursday, March 02, 2006
I Did It..

There are a lot of things to smile about in this world -- the people who care for you, the feeling of being alive, and the success you have attained in life.

I couldn't believe I did it. Finally, I reached the Finals in all three categories I participated! It's like I'm living in a dream. But this isn't a dream, it's reality. I did the best I could, and this was the result.

"Oh Lord, thank you for rewarding my perseverance and the passion to be one of the finalists. I offer all these for you were the one who helped me get through in this competition. Thank you, Lord. Thank you."

But this isn't only the accomplishment I am thankful about. This week's Tuesday (or was it Wednesday), I was nominated as one of the Exemplary Students in our class. I was happy, but wasn't that confident enough for there is another student who is better than me in most of the criteria given. The next day, our class started to vote who they chose. As expected, that other student won. I was really quiet when our adviser announced the winner, because...I honestly wanted that award more than she does. I don't mean to be selfish or not being a sport, but it's just painful to know that it is almost like nothing to her, while for me, it's such a big thing. I'm not saying that she doesn't care because she also happens to be my friend. It's just hard to accept the reality.

On the bright side, it is already enough for me to be one of the nominees. Look at it this way - out of 28 students, only four were chosen and that includes you. And besides, I feel that I'm already an Exemplary Student even without the certificate or medal, because I am already one in my own little way.


Cheska's thoughts at 5:12 AM